A reader has graciously shared part of her journal for me to share with all of you. She has had a tough journey this year! She was in a long term emotionally abusive relationship and as she wrote these entries she was preparing to take her own journey through the clouds into the sunlight. The second entry was days before she let her spouse know that she was leaving him.
She is now living an abuse free life, dancing around her apartment and humming as she drives!
The book of Encouragements* has been an incredible support. It so often
speaks right to where I am.
I am grasping at things to fill the void, but I’m still looking at
pleasing others not myself. When I try to think of what I want to do, what
I would enjoy – I come to a blank wall. I’ve spent so long pleasing others
that I can’t find me.
H0w do I want to spend the rest of my life?
How do I want to make a contribution in this life?
I’d like to take a road trip with Dad this summer.
I’d like to go with Carolyn to LLBean.
I’d like to go away with Anne.
I’d like to take a Food handler’s Course.
I want my home to be a place where people feel free to call or stop in at
any time day or night.
From anger to frightened to calm.
Calm is good. I couldn’t talk to Nick from fear. I will do it from calm
and sad. Sad to see things end, but calm because I know I have made the
*The writer is referring to Encouragements for the emotionally abused woman: Wisdom and hope for women at any stage of emotional abuse recovery by Beverly Engel
Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us! Joanne